There have been many times during this adventure when I’ve felt strange things. Things, places, people, situations, all affecting my body through senses and reflecting in my mind. Sometimes the effect is bigger and sometimes not so, but sometimes they have been thought altering experiences that have shaped my body as well as my life. Every scar, every wrinkle and every fiber of my being, reminds me of my history, and I love myself for going through everything I have.
To tell you the truth since the beginning of this adventure I had an Idea. It was a childish wish to make some magic and bring peace into my world that I share with all of you. Just like every other time I’ve wished for something in my life, I made the wish, I had the will, and I proved to myself once again that be careful what you wish for.
As a child I wished for many things. Some with positive intent and some with negative intent. I was messed up, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know how to behave. I didn’t even have the ability to speak. I made myself lonely, because that was my time to adventure through life alone.
With a life long stammer from fear, I have learnt that a wish, whether it have good intentions or bad intentions, will come true if it is put out there strongly enough. By making that wish for this journey, I surrendered myself to let life opened my eyes to it. Life has made me understand something surreal, and it has brought peace into my world.
Anything of any value in our lives, whether that be a career, a work of art, a relationship, will always start with a fool’s leap. And in order to make it you have to put aside the fear of failing and the desire of succeeding. You have to do these things completely purely without fear, without desire. Because the things that we do without lust or result, are the purest actions that we shall ever take. -Alan Moore
At the age of 13 or 14, I had an epiphany. I found my dark heart inside myself, and I wanted to make it pure again. When I stumbled upon this quote I found the key out of my box, a simple fool’s leap.
I have tried to live by that quote, to understand what it means, and learn about purity. Fear and success are the two things that are engraved in almost every human mind from the time we are born, and letting go of that box seems to affect everything.
On this journey I have had the pleasure of meeting two absolutely fabulous girls, who travel through the world alone, with a pure smile and a good heart. One is now 22 and has recently finished her unbelievable over 2 year journey. It started with a wish to see India and South East Asia, but it turned out to be an around the world journey hitch hiking from China to England along a squiggly line, then boat hitch hiking from South Africa to Brazil. From there she went to the Caribbean to sail a quarter of the world to New Zealand through the Panama canal and back home to Australia.
The other is a 19 year old Canadian girl, who is at the moment travelling the world alone. We met in Myanmar briefly and as we left Yangon to go north, she went south by train into Thailand. She decided to bike down south through the monsoon and live with a local family in a small village. I haven’t had time to catch up too much so I don’t know what happened after that, but I know she is in Israel now seeing what is truly happening in that country.
These girls travel the whole world, alone and without fear. That already speaks mountains. Sure they have had their drawbacks just as we have, but I cannot stress enough the fact that the good will of people is something sublime and indescribable. A single act of pure good will from anyone, is always that driving force behind those unexpected changes that mould the path in front. They are the reason why adventures are adventures and why we ended up in Karachi.
I realise now that it was not me who made the magic. I only allowed myself to be swept away by a childish dream, and good will came to help make the magic happen. I am truly touched by what an amazing world we live in, and I don’t know how to feel. I don’t know what to think anymore and it doesn’t matter. I don’t care, because I feel good. My oldest friend, my other half once said, that analysing is ok but thinking is pointless. I’m starting to understand.
I know now that what matter’s in life is finding that fool’s leap to get me into a new box. When that box becomes the present, it’s time to take that fool’s leap again, because inside the new box is another gift that gives the possibility to learn and grow.
A child’s mind grows wise with life, and I will never lose that gift. It was inside my first box I came to know through birth, and it is engraved in my mind and body.